oh my goodness... i love a missionary! haha that's probably not allowed... but i do anyway. and... i'm pretty sure he loves me back... at least... i hope he does... lol but seriously? tuesdays are my favorite days EVER! why you may ask? haha well, let me tell you: tuesdays are zack's email days. his P days are monday, but in port lavaca, where he's serving in texas at the moment, the libraries are closed on mondays, soo.... he emails on tuesday instead. :) and his mother,(bless her soul!) forwards the letters to me every week after she gets them. oh goodness i love her and her family... and most of all, her oldest son. :) zack is such an awesome missionary... i can tell. the things he says in his letter just reek of confidence and faith in relying on the lord with him and his companion! he has told me in letters too, that the only way to really get through life is to rely on the lord, asking help with everything and anything we need help with. i know its simple things, and things i've known for myself for awhile... but to hear zack say them... its incredible. i didn't know him growing up of course, but through the last 3 1/2 years that i have known him... not to mention the last 2 years of actually dating him (except for the part with him being gone of course, idk what to call that), he has never been a big one for bearing his testimony on things. so to hear him bear his testimony, is really special. i love it!!! he has grown so incredibly much since he left 9 months ago... and it is my prayer, that i can be as prepared and spiritually on the same level as he is when he comes back. and of course, if we are, then i certainly hope that we can get married. but... its all up to the lord of course, so we'll just have to see what happens! but as for now... i love a special missionary,in port lavaca, texas, who's about 6'2", who loves to wear cowboy boots and drive a redneck baby blue 1980 CJ5 jeep, has dark curly hair, light brown eyes, and the most crooked teeth you've ever seen in your life... but a beautiful smile.... and he's the biggest gentleman i have ever met in my life... not to mention a pretty dang good kisser! ;) jk. sigh... it goes without need to say that i am in love... and hopelessly devoted to a man i won't see for another year and a half (roughly)... but i do know one thing: its going to be worth it. all of it. all of the tears, laughs, trials, heartbreaks, long distance letter relationship stuff, the no letter spells, and only hearing each others voices and seeing pictures of each other for 2 years. its going to ALL be worth it in the end. :)
I don't think there really are any "RULES" on who you can and can't love. Your not going to be sent to outer darkness because you loved someone while they were on their mission. As for not being able to see each other for another year and a half....I hate to tell you but that is what 99% of all military spouses go through not just once, but over and over depending on how long their spouse is in the military and how many times they are deployed.
ReplyDeletehaha i obviously don't check this much... LOL but when i mean "not allowed" i mean... for him. lol like... missionaries aren't supposed to be in, or have relationships while they are out...etc. ya know? so... while i can love him, its more so against the rules for him to love me back. that's kinda what i was meaning...probably wasn't clear enough though. LOL but yeah... if i marry zack.. i really hope he doesn't go into military... this is hard, but if i was actually married to him... idk if i could do it. :/ you're awesome katie!!! :) love you!! :)
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